A'zyha Edwards - Online Memorial Website

Our first weekend together consisted of ear piercing and going to church for the first time...you were 2 months old.

I enjoyed this day because you were so beautiful as you were any day but this day you all customed ZYZY.....#churchflow

Merry Christmas, where is my baby? I remember asking your daddy, he told that you were enjoying your first Christmas with family. I asked him what time did he want to meet up so you could open up some of your Christmas, he said about 2pm, I said ok. He was so excited about the new outfit he had personally picked out for his babygirl to wear on Christmas Day! I must admit you were FLY! I met him right on schedule and you went with me for the rest of the day. You enjoyed your new saucer and you were pretty content that day seeming that you were being passed around like a hot potato (lol). My family and I enjoyed you that day as we watched you twist and turn in your new found friend THE SAUCER! We had no idea that this would be your 1st and last Christmas with your families, because you had several families, you were just that loved!

This was a normal day, we did some shopping and we met your mom because you had a doctor's appt. We went to the dr, and your diagnosis was perfect health! Your mom had a CPR and First Aid class she had to attend the next morning so you went with me. That evening you ate and you seem to be a little irritable but nothing major. You went to bed rather late. You woke up in n the middle of the night which was odd because you slept through night when you stayed with me but little did I know it would be the last time I would see you alive(I  would often tease your mom about you getting up in the middle of the night because she sd you always woke up at 4am). The picture in the upper right hand corner is the last picture you took. (a few hours before I found you) 

I woke about 6:15 that morning and I went to the restroom. Feeling a little excited about the day that was ahead because it was my son's 14th birthday and we had an magnificant day planned. I glanced at the clock because I thought it was odd that you had not awwaken for your 6am bottle. I went into the room and turned on the light and that is when I saw every being of me come crashing down. I remember a rush of thoughts going through my head. I could not think of any CPR or anything. I just remember grabbing your lifeless body running down hall saying call 911 and I speak life in her body, God I speak life. I remember my heart saying she is gone, tell her that her mommy and daddy love her and that you understand she has to go. I remember whispering that in her ears and rubbing her back. I remember calling her parents and saying A'zyha died in her sleep. She is gone! I remember the gut wrenching screams of her daddy! I remember sitting there as the emt worked on her and saying to him your hurting her, look at her tears, just let her go, please allow the her parents to pick her from here. The next, thing I know the emt said she's grabbing lets Go! I remember your mommy calling and saying what happen to my baby, I recall saying to her I dont know just pray Chelle, just pray! I remember the police came and they told me I could not go to the hospital I had to wait for the detectives first, I remember sitting there thinking what did I do wrong, why is this happening to me, Oh my God, are you really this angry with me that you would cause this kind grief to the lives of A'zyha's family. All the while I am being questioning I get the news I dreaded to hear but knew in my heart that you had passed away. I felt immediate anger, confusion, disgust, and pure hurt! I then remember the detectives allowing me to leave to go to the hospital, I remember arriving to the hospital and feeling like a rat in a snakes pit, I remember family wisking your mommy away from me, I remember family not wanting to hug me as I tried to show them comfort, I felt dirty and misjudged. I went inside the E.R. and heard the screams of other children and then I heard the sounds of the cries of your daddy, I remembering embracing him and saying that everything was going to be ok. He looked at me and sd no its not, he realized that it was me and then he turned to the nurses and said please alllow her to see Zyha. I remembering walking in that room and seeing your lifeless body on the table and I could not control it any longer I let out a cry that was so deep it hurt. I remember saying to you that I was sorry I didnt cut on the light when you awoke in the middle of night, I remember wanting to pick you up and run away. I remember the tips of your fingers had began to turn blue and you still remained that grayous color that you were when I initially found you earlier that morning. I remember your parents telling me that they know I did nothing to you and that they were standing by me no matter what anyone said. I will always love your parents because they supported me more than I could have ever supported them. 

This is the day we laid to rest...I will continue another time...(tears)